Despite my claustrophobia, whenever I sat in a small enclosed closet I felt protected. I felt taken care of. I looked at it as my support team and I would purge the feelings I couldn’t stand to harbor anymore. The closet was the only place I could really purge and find release in.Throughout my life, the various bedroom closets I’ve owned have been my hideaway to survive abuse, support my son through cancer, recreate myself after a divorce and thrive as a single mother.Gratefully, my closets helped me reach a point in my own development where there was nothing left to purge. I processed the fear and anger from old love. I came to peace with the circumstance of being a mother to a son in the fight of his life against a disease. I found strength to grow into a woman of joy and hope for me and my children.At some point, after my son’s cancer went into remission, I noticed that my hideaway turned into a sanctuary. I was still single and searching for answers for how my little family would get from point A to point B, but I felt calmer and could hear my thoughts easier. When I would turn to my closet I didn’t need to cry and scream and release. Instead I craved guidance and clarity.
It was with that new found clarity that I made three commitments to myself within my sanctuary that have served me well over the years.
- I refused to speak negatively about my children’s father in front of them.
- I promised myself that I would always provide for my children no matter what it cost me.
- My sons would know me as a pillar of strength.
Even though I no longer need the comfort of a closet to find guidance or clarity as I continue to grow into a woman of greater joy and substance, I am grateful for what I’ve both lost and gained over the years. Both purging and prayer have been great friends of mine. And I found them both within the small confines of a closet.
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Holly Dowling is a dynamic, Global Keynote Speaker & Inspirational Thought Leader passionate about the privilege of leading others. As an expert in strengths-based leadership, change management, and corporate women’s empowerment, Holly designs & delivers customized keynotes and programs for Fortune 500 companies. You can find Holly at http://www.hollydowling.com/.
Original Article Link: https://betterafter50.com/2017/04/finding-a-safe-place-to-heal/